Last night (Sunday), Mia was crying hysterically. At first, I thought that she was angry because I was late in getting her milk to her. Then I thought it's because she wanted more milk. After that, I thought maybe it's her dress that making her distressed so I took the dress off. Still no improvement.
I told my husband to get her Kangaroo Oil and quickly rubbed it on her belly. She relaxed for a while then the crying started again. I was getting worried, agitated, irritated and wanted to burst into tears but had to get hold of myself. My husband got the Gripe Water he bought a few days earlier and suggested maybe we try to give it to her. He asked me if I knew how to give to her, I shouted back at him to just read me the instructions. I had a screaming baby in my arms, I was in no condition to read for myself.
After giving her the Gripe Water, Mia was slightly better. It was then I realised she hasn't pooped the whole day. It must be bowel problem. Thank goodness for the Gripe Water. It was then I was able to cradle Mia to sleep.
This morning as Mia was finally pooping and husband left for work, I just cried and cried. I don't know why. Maybe it was pure joy that she managed to poop. Maybe I regretted being hard on my husband the night before when he was trying his best to help. Maybe because after Mia pooped, she gave me the biggest smile.
After my good cry, I prayed. I prayed for Mia's well-being. I prayed for forgiveness. I prayed that the Lord give me the strength, patience and wisdom to handle things better.